didn't go sch today

decided not to go sch today, cos only one lecture to attend... not worth it to spend so much transport time, furthermore the lecture will be webcast.

managed to use the day to shepherd freedy and to search for gifts for the newbs camp.
thank goodness, i managed to purchase all the items by today!!! feel so free at last.
thxs freedy, stanley and ruiyong for carrying the stuffs to my house, and thxs dingchuen for helping me in placing order for the other items. muz be wondering wat e gifts are right? nanny nanny boo boo...

tml will be my first tutorial in singapore studies, will be having the same class with dennis. cool.... went with him yesterday to a sale near central library... nike shoes + shirts from g2000, foxmen and u2 etc were sold there at rather cheap prices. dennis gave his professional advice on dressing sense to me... wow... too bad, the shirts r nice to see, but my wallet is disobedience... :(

ok... time to continue my revision and to watch my webcast lecture.
thx God for technology. :)

gandhi... i haf much to learn from u!

went thru abt gandhi today during my south asia studies lecture. hmm... tis man is powerful...

he is simple... yet shrewd... his leadership skills and wisdom is far beyond the reach of many big and famour leaders thru out history.

he applied the concept of modernization and primordialism to gain the support of the indians at that time. knowing well of the superiority of the colonial master, he was fully aware that striving for national independence for india thru violence was a certain path to defeat.

so he did something different, something bold, something no one would ever dare to do or even thought of doing. he adopted strictly to a non- violence policy(satyagraha- holding on to truth) to seek independence. yet he knew the power of non- violence. the power that can't be dissolve easily by the british.

he stirred up a nation's act of civil disobedience agst the british. he will spend 2hr per day weaving cotton to set an example for others so as to drive out british's goods that was destroying the economic system in india. most incredibly, he started the dandi salt march.

tis was a brillant move. the salt march will appeal to all levels of the indian society. india at that time was imposed with the ridiculous salt tax by their colonial master. moreover, salt was a household item that everyone needed irregardless of one's social status. with this, he managed to gather support from everybody.

the another catch to this march is that, gandhi knew very well such act will surely place the british into great dilemma. if they arrest gandhi, there will be an expectation of an all indians breakout agst the british. but if they dun not arrest gandhi, it will show a obvious flaw in the colonial system n discredit the pretigious colonial reign over india.

and in the end as all of us know... india managed to gain independence in 1947.
cooll... dun u think so?

we need more of such ppl in the church... ppl who dare to challenge watever's been declared impossible. ppl who can think out of the box and possess the boldness and intelligence to pursue great things for Him.

too bad gandhi wasn't a x'tian. he once said that he admired Jesus alot from his readings and understandings. but too bad he couldn't find a credible x'tian in his life who protrayed Christ- likeness in them. he even did admitted that if he ever met such whole- hearted x'tian, he may just consider a conversion to christianity. hai... isn't it such a waste.

no wonder Jesus taught us to be a salt and light wherever we are. and that we are the ambassadors of Him.

though it's definitely easy to say but hard to abide, i know i can do it thru Christ... no matter how many steps it'll take me. :)

study... study... study...

can u believe it? i've been studying today from 10am to 7pm!!!
my eyes are closing, my hairs are dropping and ........ zzzzzzzzz........

(... meng zi... hong fen... qing shi huang... india's independence 1947... struggles btw maoist rebels and constitutional monarchy in nepal... )

i'm indeed blessed!

so much things to thx God for.

1) NE broke 150 yesterday! in total we hit 156! appreciate all the hard work of my co-workers! u guys are such a great bunch to work with in Christ! :)

2) mum treated me to dinner today... a steamboat buffet at bugis. appreciate it alot! just tt frankly speaking the food wasn't nice.... food choices was super few... only 4 choices of meat and they were not marinated. worst is tt most of e time no food was left while the staff didn't bother much in topping up the stock... welll.. perhaps why it only cost 10 bucks...

3) elder sis bought a nice MYuK bag for me!








4) shirley got me a study bible!

the more i gave, the more i receive.. eversince i've been serving Him, He has really never short change me in any way. there had been time of obstacles and great challenges in my life... but His presence and providence were always more than enough for me.

btw... time to reveal the answer... celebrity of the week: EELEE TAN.
hehe... did u guess correctly?

i'm wearing sch uniform once again!

i'm wearing school uniform tml together with the whole ne.
haha... gonna be happening! break 150!
alvin bought tis st andrews' sch uni for me with a sajc tie.
think i'm looking rather suave in it. hehe.

wanna tke tis time to thx all of leaders(cls and above).
think they really worked hard tis wk. appreciate them really.

not forgetting many in northeast, though u guys may not be cls yet, i know many of u really love the Lord and give ur best to Him. i hereby salute u guys!

anyway these 2 days captured by the song come what may. haha. like e lyrics and song a lot, espy cos i saw the movie b4.

here's the lyrics:

Never knew I could feel like this

Like I've never seen the sky before

I want to vanish inside your kiss

Every day I'm loving you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings

Telling me to give you everything

Seasons may change, winter to spring

But I love you until the end of time

Come what may Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace

Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high

No river too wide

Sing out this song I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather

And stars may collide

But I love you until the end of time

Come what may Come what may

I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may

I will love you, I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may Come what may

I will love you until my dying day

veri romantic right? espy if u've seen the movie before. but after much thoughts. truly realise tt the most romantic relationship is with Jesus. if u tke away all the glamour, all the emotional entanglement, all the media effects etc... and just understand the love of Christ thru logic and spirit. u'll understand. come what may. it's a song for me and God. :)

must we have a title for everything?

today's e end of my sch wk...
so tired... very drained physically... been sleeping at around 2am nowadays... studying etc.

glad to more quite a few new friends today in my 2nd tutorial.
ate lunch with zhen quan(my army friend) then slack at library for one hour before next lecture starts.

jessie joined in later and i managed to lured one of my new friend into e slacking campaign too. hehe.

went to shepherd peter after sch. thx God for a sheep like him, consistent and stable. i feels secure with his partnership in this race for Him. guess his people is truly blessed by him too. :)

ok... tonight's agenda, go through in details my singapore studies and watch shaman king!!!

yawn...

fri- going thru in details my chinese studies and chinese language.
sun- going thru in details my south asian studies modules.

i can do it. amen!

my goodness! so pai seh!~

aiyoo... went to my tutorial today and i already commit a major sin- LUST!~

haha. no lar. it happened like tis. the innocent gideon just finished his tutorial and need to rush to another lecture. he was at the 6th floor, so he thought of taking the lift down to level one. but hold and behold, there was a crowd waiting to take e lift when gideon reached it. in his choleric nature, gideon changed his mind to take e stairways instead. he saw another female classmate entering thru a door besides the lift. that must be the stairway! so thought gideon... he followed the lady in, and saw that the stairways had basin and was pink... wait, that's not wat stairways' supposed to look like! gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!! upon taking a hurried u-turn, gideon saw e disguisted facial expression of one of his new tutor mate.

i'm not a pervert!!! i'm not a chee go pek!!!

it's getting confusing...

attended chinese lecture today...

went thru han yu pin yin... in a much deeper approach...
gosh, really couldn't understand wat e lecturer's talking about...

jessie was beside me, mumbling and pronouncing so accurately all the words, while i was like alice in the wonderland part2... this is bad...

ended class at 8pm again... thx God tis time i grabbed a decent meal b4 lecture starts.

tml's my first tutorial... south asian studies- nationalism and nation building.
pray tt i can make friends fast man...

tis week's gonna be a ultra crucial week for my ministry goal. cos it's e last wk of august!!!
really wanna break 150 once and for all.

let's work hard man, together we can! :)

anyway here's a pic we took at debbie's house last sat during the mass b-dae celebration for rachel 15/8, jiancong 17/8, dingchuen 19/8, david and me 21/8. what a concidence in the dates...

celebrity of the week

it's a plane, it's a bird, no it's.....

who is she? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

celebrity of the week.

submit ur guess into the tag board.

answer to be revealed tis sunday.

:)

cool...

today's e day for water baptism in the church...
thx God it didnt rain heavily... and e weather was perfect.. not too hot till i get sun- burn :)

think e church is really growing from glory to glory... look at the preparation for this ceremony!
and the buffet... i remember last time i had to go buy my own breakfast and lunch. haha... the water bap cerf too... more contemporary in design now.

after tt my CG celebrated b-dae with me. shirls and her team bought me to eat at kenny rogers. tis is e first time i went there... haha...






then we went to east coast beach for a time of sharing... it was so cool... daniel and e rest digged a hole to form e shape of 21 and lighted the numbers up by pouring fuel over it. boom! and i'm once again reminded that i'm 21 liao... sob sob... lao le...

then we attempted to melt our marshmellows over the fire... and chocolate too so that we can dip it with strawberries.

followed by a time of sharing and affirmations. i shared too my reflections regarding my life since i've reached 21. my family, how grateful i am to God, my current convictions, certain concerns, and my future hopes and plans.

upon looking back for e past 6 years in knowing God and the church, my life has truly been a blessed one.

never have i see myself doing wat i do today. never could i believe tt i can become who i am right now. never will i be able to know this bunch of great and awesome ppl if not for Him.

and because He lives, i can face tomorrow

because He lives, all fear is gone

because i know, i know He holds the future

and life is worth the living just because He lives :)

thanks for everything guys!

today's an extremely tiring yet fulfulling day for me.

tiring-
1) shepherded jon and matthias at my hse last nite, sleep rather late.
2) woke up early for hosting rehearsal at 10.30am.
3) Jump like crazy during the 2 services.
4) Teach at district meeting.
5) B-dae celebration! :)

fulfilling-
1) watched starwars with my sheeps... hehe...
2) hosting went smoothly today.
3) the p & w atmosphere was incredible.
4) there's was a spirit of unity and convicted desire of attaining 150 by end aug!
5) lots of presents, affirmations, b-dae wishes...

Most impt: God's presence and how i'm given a chance to cling on to His faitfulness daily!

Here's some of e stuffs i got:
1) motivational poster
2) a big card board e jc and os gals did- e wordings can shine in the dark!
3) a billabong wallet
4) 2 fleshimp shirt
5) a retro/ funky/ cool shirt from topman
6) cards, and more cards.

the truth is tt, actually it's not e presents etc tt matters.
they are precious to me becos they're from my people whom i love dearly.
no matter wat they buy, i'll just like it! :)

thanks guys... for everything!~

looking forward for many greater years ahead with u guys!

tutorials balloting...

today is the first round of tutorial balloting in sch, where u can log in to the sch's website and choose ur choice of tutorials' slot and timing, competing with others to get the timing u desired.

since the beginning from tis morning, the website has been lagging due to massive logged in.


one of the kiasu student is me... hehe. dashed to central library to submit my tutorials' balloting since initially it was supposed to end at 3pm. there was ppl everywhere in the library, trying to enter the net. u can see tonnes of ppl at the computer centre, ppl hogging on to their laptops. in my desperateness... i went to the library books' searching com to log into net... hai!~

ok... finally managed to ballot for the tutorials i want. managed to 'convince' jessie and another friend of mine to take the same tutorial slot as me. now e most impt issue is will i able to get them...

where does my help comes from? it cometh from the Lord....

a bit stress...

finally, i've attended my first lecture for all my modules.

ended class at 8pm today. by the time i come out of the LT, it was dark. i was really hungry, went with jessie(had the last lecture with her- chinese lang) to the DECK. guess wat? all the store's closed!!! went to nus co-op to buy my textbook... it's closed too... the only place still alive? central library. but i can see the students in there are half-dead.

i 'munched' on my newly- bought singapore's studies text while taking my ride home, from nus to buona vista mrt, then change train at raffles' interchange to amk, then take 269 home. reached home and logged on to ivle... tonnes of download to do... lecture notes, tutorials, readings...

a bit stress... lots of new stuffs to learn, new stuffs to absorb... and actually cos i'm dead serious in studying hard tis time round. when i said i acknowledge God's grace in my uni education i really meant it.

i really wanna honor Him with every aspects of my life. really. let it be evident.

A DIE HARD SPIRIT

what is evangelism?

An artist once sought to depict on canvas the meaning of evangelism. He painted a picture of a storm at sea. Black tempestuous clouds filled the sky with forewarnings of disaster. Illumined by a flash of lightning, a little boat dashed against the breakers in the raging waves. The stricken vessel was disintegrating under the pounding of the ocean. Sailors struggled in the swirling waters, their anguished voices crying out for help. But there was no help.

The only glimmer of hope could be seen in the foreground where a large rock protruded out of the sea. And there, clutching desperately with both hands, was one lone seaman.

It was a moving scene. Looking at the painting, one could see the the tempest a symbol of mankind's hopeless condition. And, true to the Scripture, the only way of salvation was the Rock of Ages, a shelter in the time of storm. But as the artist reflected upon his work, he realized that he had not accurately portrayed evangelism.

So he painted another picture. The scene was similar to the first. It had the same storm- the black clouds, the flashing lightning, the angry waters. There was the same little boat crushed by the breakers, its crew vainly struggling in the waves. In the forefront was the same large rock of safety with the same seaman holding on for salvation. But the artist made one change. Now the survivor was holding on with only one hand, and with the other hand he was reaching down beneath the waves to lift up a sinking friend.

This is the New Testment picture of evangelism.

the delegates are going back... sob sob... :(

after spending so much time with the delegates for e past few days...
they're leaving.... sob sob...
spend the last few days doing lives with them.


Thurs: we went to eat sing ho hainanese chix rice, went to play arcade

Fri: went for training class, ate at marine parade, went shopping at bugis street





Sat: went pm and ss together, joined us in meeting, went esplanade then eat prata opp fortune center



Sun: went for ulm together, fellowship at a mini buffet at rc, dinner treat by them at one of this chinese restaurant near city hall

i will miss them. really.

some of them cried tonight after the farewell dinner. me? i didn't dare to cry. i didn't want to. but i will not forget the happenings in these past few days.

was talking to one of them philip yesterday. great potential in this brother. i shared to him tt the God of Singapore is the same God in Hong Kong. i'm excited for the growth potential in the church there.

though time flies and they will be gone from singapore at around noon tml, i'm glad tis is not just another foreign visits. we're doing lives together in Christ. same purpose, same vision, same spirit. i'm grateful... truly grateful tt i'm a Christian. a child of God in the big family of His.

understand tt when the church there reaches an attendance of 100 for the youth group we'll go over to celebrate with them. i'm really looking forward for it!

it's 4.13am!

just finished doing my training materials for tml's class meant for the delegates from taipei and hongkong and also my hosting script for this sat. yawn...

first time tt i met up with all the delegates today...

they are rather simple and sincere ppl. although many of them couldn't really spk chinese or english very well... i thx God that communications went rather smooth for the whole night!

not the first time tt i hosted ppl from other hope churches. but everytime i'm just so pleasantly amazed at how ppl from all over the world can come together in unity despite of all the differences in loving the same God.

espy when i interact with these hope internationals. different culture, background or even language. but same vision, same passion, same zeal and same conviction.

i'm so blessed to be in Hope Church, where we walk the talk. as a church planting movement, i've really seen with my own eyes how God is moving across all nations, cultures and languages to bring His people back to His arms. Lives are transformed, souls are saved.

yearning for many powerful years ahead!:)

first day in school!

today's my first day in school.
took me 3hrs to and fro just to attend a 2hrs lecture on south asia: people, culture and development.

<-----wat i've learnt?





life's in nus is cool... take today as e.g.
1) After lecture there was a free buffet waiting outside the LT for us as freshmen
2) There was a pasar malam kind of 'temp market' at forum(near central library) - free milo... realy cheap and gd stuffs, somemore barginable (gosh i'm going crazy!)
3) There's X-box selling in the sch book store
4) The food sold at THE DECK is nice and cheap. (I only drank fruit juice cos dun wanna lose to eelee. sob sob..)
5) U can eat and drink in the LT, and u can wear bermuda and sandal to attend lectures
6) U can eat in the library (tis is bad... for me...)
7) U can skip lectures and tutorials without anyone nagging on u... opps...

i wanna bring my jc ppl for a trip to nus one of these days. time to motivate them!

anyway i've set my heart on really studying hard and give my best tis time round... so no skipping classes for me k.

i know it's a grace extended to me tt i'm able to study in nus. one of my classmate who got exactly the same grades as me didn't enter nus despite petitioning twice... i was nearly denied of an uni education due to my finacial constraits. God made a way thru my elder sis.

God is a good God. It's not just a statement. It's a heartfelt thing. U'll know wat i'm saying abt when u've been touched by Him. :)

And guessed wat? my mum changed for a new phone and she exchanged it with my older one.
It's my first camera phone! Nokia 6610i.



so blessed, i can't contain it! :)

mum's back from hongkong! :)

mum's finally back from hongkong. she's been away for around 2 months plus liao.

brought many things back with her together with many interesting stories of her adventures there...

it's good to haf her back:

it was e few months when she wasn't around that i realised how much i've taken her for granted much of the time.

it was tis time tt i understand y God created mothers :)


missed her a dear lot when she's in hongkong.
but when i fetch her from airport... just dun know how to express it outwardly
guess guys really suxs at expressing ourselves...

sch's starting... lots of things to buy!

sch's starting real soon...

tis wed will mark the first lecture i'm going to have in NUS.

lots of things to buy.

brought some stationaries today:








(the joke is that i realised there's no pencil in pencil case at all after buying the eraser)

brought two jeans and one bermuda too...








humans can be so contradicting at times.

when i was in army i wanted sch's life.
when i was out of army i wanted sch to begin.
when sch's beginning i want sch to vanish.

humans are strange creatures, don't u agree?

be grateful to His grace, think abt His love

finally we're back to grace oriented series. thxs to shirley!

characteristics of a grace oriented person in relation to himself:

1) Having gd esteem
2) Being positive
3) Being content
4) Being secure
5) Having peace
6) Enjoying freedom
7) Being joyful

i haf everything i need. education. purpose in life. tv. computer. friends. meaningful ministry. church. all these are great. but i need U most of all in my life.

You are the reason for life mysteries.
You are the reason i came to being.

shepherd of my soul,
i give u full control.
whenever U lead me i will follow.

it's raining pics...

eversince the launch of cg snapshot contest, e camera monster has been actively on the move. beware and be alert... u may just be e next victims....

bravo to SRJC... see how much have they grown!!! so proud of u guys!!!

went to discipleship seminar today... healing the wounded and overloaded.
one thought tt strucked my mind during the lesson is that God is God and I am not.
need to learn tt tis ministry belongs to Jesus. take Him out of e pic and everything will be built solely on human efforts without any soild rationale.

"God, help me to rely on You, in all that I do. Remind me constantly to focus my eyes on You, since You are the author and perfector of my faith. I'll trust in the Lord, let me never lean on my own understanding. In all of my ways, I'll acknowledge You and You'll make my path straight."

another day of fruitful cgs...

went to freedy and siewluan's cg today. really enjoyed myself. it's such a joy to see new ppl joining us, seeing them beginning their first few steps in their journey with God. sch's starting soon... gonna miss e joy of attending cgs and seeing e exact growing process of my ppl's life. but i thx God tt i haf a team of cls whose are really passionate and sacrificial... really...

today's only e day i found out my com got virus... sent accidentally by my elder sister... sianz.... any help out there? help! (echo...)

oh... managed to catch a glimpse of priscilla's nephew pic thru eelee's blog.






isn't he/she cute?

girls are made of sugar, spice n everything nice- is it really true?

went to yihui, dehui and rachel's cg today. these bunch of girls are really fun- loving and wild during games. katerina nearly DDT e rest of her CG members in order to emerge winner in e game. (i'm gonna be so dead for gossiping abt her!)

announced e new structure for the girls' grp during their cgs. positive response. shows tt our girls are built upon strong biblical foundation. restructure for growth and for strength. tt's wat we're determined to see happening. it's starts w us!

oh... dehui's girls cooked super duper nice spaghetti... together w ice cream and sara lee's cake for dessert. man... i'm so going to lose to eelee & co.

sassy is so cute!!!

Introducing Sassy- matthias' 3 mths old puppy!!! Tis is my first shepherding with matthias, since jon tay needs more time to focus on his 'A' lvls. At his house now, in his room, on his bed, besides his cute puppy. Physically it's not really tt attractive, but it's really adorable. It's a female husky mixed- blood. Loves to shower others espy visitors with her saliva. Doesn't bark much, thx gooodness! Matthias just taught her how to shake hands with people 2 days ago. Heard tt this breed of dogs can grow into considerably huge size. In any case if u r craving to see sassy, just to let u tt i'm trying to convince matthias in bringing sassy to ne rc one of these days. Oh, here's a glance of how matthias' room looks like:

Hey, i've just learnt to insert pics into my blog. so tis is e first pic i'm going to insert man... haha... actually tis is one of e only fews i have in my com la... more's coming.

Aniway yesterday was a series of meeting for me. after shirls' meeting we went to sakae sushi to celebrate w eelee her **th birthday!!! we had a wonderful time of affirmations n each of us prophetically gave eelee a verse to cling on to as she embarks her future journey w God. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EELEE!

Jon Tay came my hse after tt, in e name of studying.... but e rest was history. Aniway e upcoming months is going to b challenging in an exciting manner for me. I'll be taking up more roles among my hs gals' grp, which i'm really looking forward to tis w great anticipation of tremendous growth! It will also b a time when i really need to learn how to juggle well btw my studies n ministry as sch's starting real soon for me.

Been thinking abt e breakthru campaign e church's embarking now. I'm seeking for a breakthru in my zeal, yearning n whole-hearted devotion to God in my life which can b expressed in various channels. Planning to set aside some time tis wk to really ponder n think thru so tt i can b specific n clear in wat's lying ahead for me.