Never knew...

Never knew that there are many people in my life tt i love so much till certain things happen.
Such truth has been proven yet times and times again in my life.

There are some people in my life which hold the key to my heart. These are the people who can tap into the deepest corner of my soul and unveil the secrets of my being. Yet at the same time, these are often that people who I trust and care for the most and yet hold the greatest potential to crumble my emotional wall.

Over the years I've learnt to handle such sticky situations. I've learnt to clarify and seek the truth behind every information I receive. I've learnt to lean on my objectivity instead of emotions when making my judgement. Clarification is the head, objectivity is the body, forgiveness and resolution is often the tail.

I'm glad that I have grew strongly for the past few years through the tides and storms.

Christanity is now so hoslistically real and relevant in my life. It touches every dimension of my being. Imagine me without You... I will be so lost and confused... I wouldn't last a day... I'll be the same... Without You there to see me through...

What is Easter to me?

Been looking around ppl's blogs like a head-hunter for the past one hour. Many people blogged abt wat Easter means to them. Hmmm... how abt me? Wat does Easter means to me?

Actually had the intention to answer this question with an old-school fashion: that everyday can be Easter as long as we learn to appreciate God's work on the Cross daily. Yes that is true, but definitely Easter by itself holds it's unique significance... at least to me i guess.

Easter brings back flashbacks of my life last time. How insecure and lost I felt last time, in the midst of people who have absolute intolerance for socially constructed deviant behaviours within people like me.

I was drowning in the stormy sea, crying out loudly in the midst of indifferent deafening social waves . No one came to my rescue, leaving me all alone to face the fate of despair and hopelessness.

Heavenly stars never fail to showcase their brightness outstandingly amongst the back-drop of each vast dark night. The hands of a Saviour I will never forget came into the swirling pool of soulful condemnation and rescued me.

Life took a turn for the better... for the good... for the great... for the awesome... and towards an indescribable enchanting journey of a life-time.

My life was a valley of dry bones. God came in to change all that. He covered me with flesh and tendons. Put on clothes to cover my shame, flooded me with spiritual endowments and breathed His breath of life into my dying soul.

Today I can be who I was created to be, fulfilling my destiny which God knitted while I was still in my mother's womb. Certainly such undeserving and over-whelming treatment came with a price, beyond any world's monetary resources can ever pay.

Yet Jesus' death paid it all; once and for all.

This is a love I can't comprehend.
This is a invitation I can't reject.
This is a relationship I can't forsake.

He is my God who I will love.

Easter isn't Easter till it happens in your heart. ~

What a long time since i last blogged.

Been super busy recently. Passion Campaign... June Camp... Essay after essay... Presentations... Mid-term tests... Hosting... Meetings...

Just an update of me now!

This year had been an exciting year for me thus far. Lots of "first time" in my life.

First time that I'm leading the Youth Camp.
First time that I'm changing my childhood dream of majoring Chinese to Social Work.
First time that I went to Pastor Ben's house.
First time that I went to a musical.
First time that I tried kayaking.
First time that I learned to play DOTA.
First time that I went to Pastor Jeff's house.
First time that I went to Bangkok, a place out of Singapore and Malaysia.
First time that I ended worship in Service.
First time that I studied something on computing.
First time that I became an uncle.
First time that one of my ex-shepherd's getting married.
First time that I dyed my hair.
First time that I shared in an Anger Management Class (though I myself struggles w anger!).
First time that I have sheeps entering army.
First time that I have sheep going to Adult Group. (& the shepherd is still in youth...)
First time that I shouted at Istana. (din i tell u i got issue w anger management?)
First time that I tried a 4 bucks buffet in my life.
First time that I feel that age is catching up with me. :(

Really can't remember anymore first time in my life le.

Passion Campaign has just been ended. I'm so proud of my NE guys. Their consistent passion and fervent displayed thruout the mth of Mar. Our goal was 20 converts in Mar. We had 39 converts instead! Though we din hit our goal of 180 last saturday, I thank God for the intense desire and hardwork we put in and all the testimonies of miracles and soul-saving experiences.

We are contented with what we have achieved, but not complacent. 180 is still what we want and nuthing's gonna change it!

Banging hard on 1. RETENTION 2. STUDIES' PREPARATION

I'm having much spiritual anticipation for the upcoming 2 Easter services. Metamorphosis' gonna happen on Gd Friday. We're gonna rock Nexus on tt day.

Last week and today had been a week of burden awakening for me personally.

I managed to know this boy who is currently working as a dish-cleaner in my school canteen. Actually I've noticed him a month ago. Just that since I've been so busy haven't even got time to eat a proper meal at the canteen. Saw him again last thurs. God placed a heavy burden in my heart to tok to him. I struggled quite alot, given that a number of my schmates whom I know was around the canteen at that time. Then I remembered what Eelee said: "JUST DO IT!"

I went to the boy and tok to him.... He doesn't want to study anymore le, intending to work soon at one of the western food store in the canteen. Managed to get his handphone no. and msn. He added me in his friendster too. Still tinking of ways to connect him. Intending to invite him for Easter.

Then on Sunday I went to a camp called Youth at Risk conducted by T-NET (a grassroot organisation linked w CC) to share my experience with anger and how I deal with them. Got to know a few of the campers. And I managed to keep in contact with one of them called Jason through MSN. I thx God for his openness to me. Shared to me some stuffs about him. And I'm trying to connect to one of his friend which I know yesterday through the camp too. He said he'll get the friend to call me... Wow... So initiative! Haha...

All along since young I guess God has placed in me a burden for youth, espy youth at risk from junvenile delinquency. That's why I wanted to be a teacher, to have close contact and interaction with youths. I hope what I'm pursuing now in school will be helpful for what God intends to use my life for. Working as a social worker in a professional organisation will definitely means there are restrictions on what I can do though, guess I will needed to have much of God's annointing and wisdom by then. I need to learn to be less emotive and more objective, so that I can facilitate as a better helping hand to others.

Yesterday was Freedy's belated birthday celebration. I'm really thxful to God for placing him in my life. Will always remember what he said that he knows me to an extent that he will not mis-interpret my actions. Also I thx God that in him I can be open and unreserved in my thoughts on things. I truly appreciate this partnership of serving God with him, and I desire to see him doing even more things and greater stuffs in the near future.

Watched V for Vendetta. Really enjoyed the show. I like the plot and the meaning placed behind it. The movie was thought-provoking and contains a flair of philosophical ideologies. The script was well written with obvious attention given to each and individual words used to bring out the precise taste and flavour of the story.

"below the mask isn't just flesh & blood- it's an ideal; ideal can't be penetrated."

Till next time!~