Why is time passing so slowly?

Ok the fact that I'm blogging for consecutive two days show how free and slack I am for these few days.

Had a great time fellowship with Jon Tay and Shawn last night. Went to play pool with them at AMK Central. Actually only the two of them play la cos I'm kinda not interested in pool at all. Initial plan was to play lan (as u can see I'm really desperate to the stage of wanting to play computer games!) , but the shop in AMK was closed. Then we headed to Jubilee to see if there's any slot for I NOT STUPID2 (to think that I will even be willing to watch movie at the run-down Jubilee and somemore a chinese and local film at such a head-chopping price!). Anyway to cut things short the tickets were all sold out and thus we ended in playing pool.

Managed to see one of this boy that was under my care before when he was Sec 1. He's 18 now! Oh gosh I feel so old... He is working as cashier at the pool shop now. Hmmm... He changed alot... Really alot... It's kinda of scary when u see someone young and cute to grow up till he becomes... well nevermind... I hate ageing!

In any case I managed to get his number. Intend to catch up with him thru msn too. Let's see if I can connect him back to God. I got to know his friend too. A guy who came from ACS. Used to be a church-goer too. Well I do hope that I will be able to help this two back on track again.

Had supper with Jon Tay and Shawn before heading home. Spent the night chatting with Shawn till near 4am! So tiring seriously, but I enjoyed the chat much. I personally feel that a shepherding relationship should not be one way but two way. There should be open communication between shepherd and sheep and to be real to each other. Of course there must also be a balance between beside transparent and naked in our sharing when the sharing is done from a shepherd to the sheep. We ought to be honest in our sharing yet be responsible to ensure our conversation are helpful and not stumbling in any manner. There must be a strong element of friendship and also mutual trust and respect between each other which is totally essential especially in discipleship. Ok... sounds like Tonight with Gideon session... Phew...

Oh and tonite Matthias will be bringing his laptop to my house so can play Warcraft Dota... Haha I feel so sinful man! Somebody redeem me from all these temptations!!!

Well I shall waste no more time now and head straight back to my revision.

(mugging...mugging...mugging...)

Gideon and the Ba Gua Factory

Priscilla sent me an interesting new year message yesterday.
It goes like tis in English:

I'm going off... Going off to be made into ba gua... Dun miss me...
I heard that you're next... Please tke care!

Ok la i think the chinese version sounds funnier... or mayb cos when I was reading the message I can imagine Pris' hilarious facial expressions...

Anyway... the past two days have been so torturous to me... Imagine me doing nuthing for days!?!?!?! No visitation for anyone this year (but in fact actually i really dun enjoy CNY visitation anyway).

Guess what, I actually spent the past yesterday and today living in my own world among my mountains of school readings! Fancy me mugging like nobody's business during CNY! That's so lifeless! Ok thx God shawn initiated to come over my hse later to accompany me. OMG tt's so nice of him! Remind me that I must love him as my sheep for the next one week ok!

Looking forward for Tuesday's reunion lunch with my coreteam at Peter's house. Thx God for Peter and his mum in opening up their house to make the reunion lunch possible!

Besides mugging for the past few days and for the remaining two days to come... I'm glad that i haf a chance to spend more time at home. Realised seriously I haven't had a decent time to spend time and joke w my mum etc. I just washed plates just now ok! Ok lar confess cos my mum just complained in the morning that I seldom do housechores.

Good time to do self-reflections in my life too. Took time to fellowship with God. Just now I thought thru my years in army last time. Realised at that period of time I really relied and depended on God lots! Almost every moment I'm always praying and asking God to help me help me help me! That was the time when my relationship w God was really close and intense.

I missed that period of time. But i told myself that I wanna desire and seek God even more in my life. The past was great but the future is waiting there for me to make it better!

In any case, wanna tke tis time to thx God for martin for helping me to coordinate the recent NE reunion dinner and also in coming up with the msn display pic and publicity for NE 180 Degree Change.

And also thx God for Yanyu! Besides being my most trusted myehope stats administrator, she was also super faithful with helping me for the letter to NE. Thanks for giving ur best in coming out with the Feb Fasting and Prayers' Guide! U r always ever ready to give ur best and responsible with the things u've been entrusted with. U r a strong pillar in NE and support in the coreteam.

Tell me really... With people in Northeast who are whole-hearted to God and love people as if they are diamonds, how will Northeast not grow? God will surely use us! NE 180 Degree Change! It can and must be done!

180 Degree Change!

God has been speaking to me eversince Dennis prophesied in the last CLM of allowing God's presence to rain upon our lives...

Then God re-emphasized and confirmed NE's direction in 2006 thru Isaiah 54:2-3 that this will be a year of stretching for us-

1) Personal life- Spiritual life and studies

2) Commitment to church

3) People

4) Finance

Had a stayover at jiancong's house with the rest of my team on Saturday's night. Had a wonderful time of intercession and worship. We dedicated the whole night as a divine night to God. It was a special night. God spoke to us and confirmed our goal for end March this year.

180.
We are going to have 180 degree change by end March. 180 people lives being changed and transformed by God.

We prayed that God's wisdom will be upon us as we planned throughout the night for NE's growth. Surprisingly the next morning when Freedy shared with me about the 5 key areas which contributed to Bangkok's church growth last year... we realised that most of the things we discussed and decided the precious night were in line with the areas shared during the recent LC(leadership conference).

I am truly excited for the months ahead... My team and I are really convicted with die-hard determination to accomplish what we have set in my heart by end March.

Looking forward too for Love 111. It shall be such an awesome sight to see the entire Nexus auditorium to be filled with people from different zones and schools.

Ok let me turn to a more relaxed tone...

Been trying my best to mug eversince school starts... pretty sure that i'm rather much ahead of most of my peers in my revision, but hmmm... just seemed to lack the intense drive during my revision... perhaps it normal la, since it's only the third week of my semester.

i had a nightmare last night, that I missed my exams cause sick... I was so so sad in my dream as I dreamt tat I knew all the answers to the questions in the exams (when will this be possible?)...

I better study hard manz... just got my bursary from Hope Center last saturday.
Just realised too that MCYS is offering scholarship for those social work undergraduates.
I'm 70% sure by now that I'll be majoring in social work. Considering of applying for this scholarship next year when I declared my major in social work. But gotta check out the terms and conditions first. I dun wish to be bonded to any organisation by this moment of time.

In any case, I'm looking forward for the reunion dinner of NE this thursday. Will be so happening!~

And ya... we had a spring cleaning for RC last friday (i'm pretty sure the cleanliness won't last for two weeks)... we decorated RC up too with a touch of Chinese New Year. And Debbie and the rest said I looked like the God of fortune that we pasted on the door... Where got?

Pastor Nayapong

went to host Ps Nayapong yesterday with freedy and dan feng from central.

learnt so so much from his life.

got so much inspirations drawn from him.

here are so amazing deeds this man of God did...

1) grow group from 1000+ to 3800 people!

2) and these 3800 people all come from just one university!

3) which means tt for every 6 students in the school, 1 of them is from Hope

4) he discipled 5 RLs!

5) a RL is someone who takes care of 300-500 people

6) he takes care of 18 sheeps!

7) and he shepherds all 18 faithfully every week!

8) he keeps a record of all his sheeps' lives for future references

9) he sleeps 4 hours on average per day

10) he became a Christian for 11 years, become a pastor after 6 years

11) he is the youngest pastor in Hope of God Bangkok

12) he excerises 2 times a week (opps!)

13) he's going for a one month mission trip in Africa with Pastor David

14) he hopes to do mission work in India

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't he incredible?!?!

he really inspires me to love God so much so much more!

oh... and he challenged me to serve as a RL too... and to excerise more...
(*gideon's face turns red)

and ya... and i talked with Pastor David on phone!!!!!!!!!!!

so so nervous and excited and .........

ok lar... dun worry my struggle is not in idoltrary ok...

just tt i really respect all lovers of Jesus and i want to love God as much as they do too.

i'm wanna see breakthrus in so many areas man...

something exciting is coming... just wait and see... ;)

anyway, here's a photo i took in last year bangkok trip with freedy and recent photo with lester too...

(gosh i look so... ok Pastor Foil i shall respond to ur altar call)

(if u observe closely... tt's a mascot for a diaper's brand- we took the photo in one of the grandest shopping mall in Bangkok called Paragon)

photos time!

blogging at 5am!

just woke up abt one and a half hour ago...

woke up cos mosquito bites... and my cough is back...
coughed like there's no tomorrow...

oh man i'm having difficulty breathing now...
spent some time toking to God... perhaps it was His intention for me to wake up and chat with my Daddy :)

just when i was thinking of finding a substitute to replace me for hosting later... Daniel Cheah came online!

he told me he just woke up for no reason... divine intervention? i hope so!~

i approached him warmly and said sweet stuffs like "y wake up so early? :)..."

then i throw him a stunner early in the morning 5am...

"can you host for me later in 5 hours time?"

whahahaha... tt's Gideon! the one and only malicious GIGI NG!

anyway i told him i will try my best to host lor...
cos:

(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
rest assured i will try my best to host
(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
u know y
daniel117(*AOC*)- amazed by grace, motivated by love, changed by the word says:
i know u will lah.
daniel117(*AOC*)- amazed by grace, motivated by love, changed by the word says:
dun wrry,
(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
cos i'm running out of ideas for hosting le
daniel117(*AOC*)- amazed by grace, motivated by love, changed by the word says:
hehex.
(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
so if today u tke my script
(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
i will haf hard time thinking new script next time
daniel117(*AOC*)- amazed by grace, motivated by love, changed by the word says:
i know wat u mean man
(•·÷[GÏЀØÑ]÷·•) says:
so die die i will try to drag my body to hosting stage

ok i feel tt i'm toking rubbish now... mayb cos i not enough sleep... or my breathing difficulty is slowing down the oxygen circulation to my brain or... whatever....

anyway i wanna end of by saying i love my CG members (both) and God I love the way You love me! (no link no link... kuku... kuku... kukuku...)

gideon's pondering...

pondering...

over social work or chinese major.

over friendship meaning.

over family concept.

over ministry passion.

over those who r just around me,
those who cared for me,
and those who love me dearly.

i'm taking time to seek the Lord,
a time of reflection before His pool of quiet water.

i'm seeking the Lord through what His Word says,
for it will be my light when all other lights go off.

i'm learning to face and to be real to my emotions,
not to submit and be led by them,
but to haf the courage to acknowledge yet obeys biblically.

i'm learning to see further in life,
and to try and figure out the definition of 'future' for me.

Lord i live by Your Word
Lord i live by every Word from Your mouth
I'm like a tree by the stream
I'm bearing fruits my leaves are green
All that i do is prospering oh Lord
I live by Your Word...

As the rain and the snow comes down from heaven
That water the earth, and bring forth its fruit
So shall be the Word that You have spoken
It shall not return, empty to You
It shall accomplish Your desire
It surely will succeed
Your Word has changed the desert
and Your Word is changing me...

i believe like a child that all who love God will find their joyous living in Him.
i'm waiting in expectation for God to bring about a realisation and fulfilment of His best plan for one whom i care lots.
it shall be done.

looking back, thanking God

so many things to thx God for in 2005.

remembered tt early tis year was discussing with eelee abt my financial difficulties in pursuing tetiary education n almost had to end up with decision of giving up the chance to NUS.
thank God tt He supplied me thru my elder sis.

thank God for His trust and allowing His leaders to place trust in me too for leading over NE during june tis year. was really a big challenge to me at that point of time. the support and empowerment given to me by all at tt time were greatly appreciated.

thx God tt i completed my NS service tis year too. the blessings and constant providence of His are just so incredible.

thx God for those He placed in my life to aid me and make great impacts in my life:

Eelee for entrusting me with so much responsibility n much empowerment, for lending helping hands when i needed it the most beginning tis year.

Shirley for her intense care and wonderful love acts to me. Learnt much from her life and wisdom.

Priscilla for the lessons learnt while working with her during both camps. the encouragements she gave and sharings that came from her heart.

Dennis for being such a great school mate that i can have. Appreciate the brotherly friendship offered.

a big thanks for my coreteam members that went thru up and down with me thru 2005, tolerating all my inadequacies and supporting me fully in my service to God:

Jiancong for being a wonderful co-worker and close friend in Christ.
Dingchuen for your consistency in life n inspiration given to me in area of shepherding.
Freedy for staying close by my side in tis partnership for Him n understanding bits and pieces of me.
Peter for your ever sweet and willing spirit and for enduring my nonsence at times.
Junhuang for ur constant support and armour-bearing spirit.
Debbie for being a strong pillar in NE n ur ever understanding and pastoral nature.
My bunch of crazy girls for ur craziness in the Kingdom matters and for ur dilligence and hard toils in this youth ministry.- Yihui, Siewluan, Dehui(now serving in West), Rachel and latest addition to the 'crazy sisterhood': Yanyu.

thank God for my sheeps too whom mean lots to me though i seldom express it out effectively:
Sunny, Jon Tay, Matthias and lately: Shawn
most of u really know my exact weaknesses and strengths, my struggles and difficulties.
yet ur constant tolerance for all my illogical behaviors at times r just so amazing!
thanks for being there in my life.... wouldn't have been the same without u guys.

thank God for my physical family too, especially:

a wonderful mum who toiled hard for the family, sacrificing so much into her children whom she loves dearly. sorry but i never know how to express my feelings to u thru words face to face.

a supportive sister for helping me so much for my university admissions and for being a strong pillar in our family.

i wanna thx God for my dad i know is making efforts in becoming a better father in my life.

lastly i thank God for God, for tis relationship offered in the first place, for His faithfulness that endured all these while... His everlasting love and goodness tt followed me thru out these years, His continual presence and guidance that r going to be with me for the years ahead.
No God, No me.