high-strung easily? yes i am!

Taken from Pastor Ben's blog:
"Highly-strung people worry about details, can be emotional even nervous and often want to be in control. They tend to be on edge, over-sensitive, irritable and can jump at people."

How true can this be for me!

Had been floating aimlessly in the sea of exams and revision for the past few weeks. Now that exams are finally drawing to an end, time for me to loosen up a little bit more and starts setting things right in my life once again like a jigsaw puzzle.

Last month was a month that I spend more time with Matthias. Stayed over at his house a few nights and managed to watch SAW & SAW2 with him. Really liked the plot alot, especially the twist that comes at the end of the movie.

I've learned to enjoy my shepherding with my sheeps. Time spent with Sunny last Sunday at Toa Payoh eating sweeties & chilling out at Junction 8's Coffeebean, highly 'crushable' chat with Matt and Shawn at Delifrance, 'Chix Rice War' with Jon Tay, close-to-heart conversation with Freedy and so on...

By the way, quite a few people came to me asking about Jon Tay. Yes he is still doing totally cool in Christ. Just that his army vocation is demanding and thus we often see him missing in actions nowadays. He'll be back in action this Saturday thanks to voting = public holiday.

Had lunch and a short catch-up session with Dennis and Weiling in school today. Weiling was then a cedar sec's sister I served together with when I was a less than one-year-old believer in High School D. Years have gone and now she's already working as a web-designer and serves in the Adult ministry faithfully. Our ex-shepherd is getting married this month and both of us are really excited about it!

Besides all these, this year promised to be unique for me also because this is the first time that I'm eligible to vote. But please, don't come asking me who I'm going to vote for as I really don't know till now. No worries, will take time to think through about it. But I must say, politics are seriously unattractive to me, though I understand it's importance. Was a bit surprised to see that many are really anticipating for the election this time round. Jon Tay went to hear the talks held by Workers' Party, and I heard that Freedy & Dennis hope to go and attend such talks too. I think there are some issues within me to explain my sheer disinterest in such political matters...

Past few weeks had been a time where God spoke to me specifically on a few occasions. I feel that the next coming few months will be period that God wants to develop and grow me intensely. One of the challenge God gave me came in a short and simple question: "Do you want to love me wholeheartedly?". Indeed it's such a simple sentence, yet it contains such a profound and real challenge. It is easy to say that I want to love God whole-heartedly. It is easy to think about it too. But doing it? Doing it consistently? Doing it as it flows out naturally from my spiritual inner-being? I told God that I want to, but I don't know how to. I asked God to help me, teach me, and guide me to love Him wholeheartedly. A few areas for me to grow this coming few months. 1. Knowledge. 2. Prayer life. 3. Love for the Word. 4. Maintaining a child-like faith and hunger.

Truly excited for the next few months, planning to make regular visits to church office and watch sermon tapes and increase my readings too. Borders holds a high potential to be my next favourite hotspot. It's time too for me to do visitation to some of the care groups and to arrange meet-up sessions with some of my people. Time to intesify the progress towards June camp too.

Going for a interview next monday with Fei Yue for a chance to work with youths-at-risk who are identified by their schools. Coming months will also be helping out with Hope Center to conduct values-centered lessons in Sengkang Sec. So glad that my schoolmate Jason agreed without hesitation to conduct the class with me. I'm trying hard to increase my profile and experience in the social work fields. Praying hard to my Daddy that my results for this semester will be great so that I can apply for MCYS' scholarship.

Yes I know... my entry today seemed disorganised and unstructured... just some of my random thoughts. And yes, they're mainly anecdotes... good for me to recap my life and respond back to God in thanksgiving and praise.