Aiyooooo....

I hosted at parents' service last sat. So scary.... Really.... My hands were trembling and shivering while holding e mic. I kept stumble upon some of e words... Many said i didn't speak as clearly as i should... gosh, it was really a traumatising experience of a lifetime. But hey, at least i managed to get it done with, without making an absolute fool of myself k. I was reminded of wat God said in His Word, that He would do great works in our life far beyond wat we can ever imagine, if only we would allow Him to use us. Hosting on the stage has always been a dream for me. I remembered coming to church many times, day dreaming of how i could be like those on stage speaking confidently with e audiences caught their captivation. I never thought i could be like them... seriously... cos i was so shy, insecure and physically unimpressive especially that i couldn't even speak english properly at tt time. Just so so thxful tt i've found God. I mean only when u know tt u were in miry clay then u will know e goodness of been lifted up to somewhere far better. Aniway i'm looking forward for more chances at hosting, i'm still scare obviously. But it's so thrilling n u can feel ur adrenalin rushing and yes... u've finished it with God by ur side again!!! Oh... and i've found out tt i'm leading communication dept for e upcoming june camp. So many deadlines n things gotta b done in such a short time since camp's coming in one month's time. Ok God... i really need U to be in this w me if not i'll be so dead! Help me to do all tis in a spirit of humility and gratitude. Refine my motives constantly tt i may not fall into e trap of doing things out of formality n familiarity. Let me do all things becos of 2 reasons- because i love U and e people who are e apples in Ur eyes.

i'M gOnNa bE fReE... sOoN...

YUP... i'm finishing my army so soon liao... finally... wow the feeling of clearing leave and enjoying my every moments at home or with my guys are juz so great and chilling cool..... I can accomplish so much more stuff in juz a wk. I've set my objective of seeing 100 ppl under my care b4 i enter uni in august. so these few wks/mths gonna be so crucial man... i know i really need to step up on my skills in discipleship, or shall i say, i've set my mind to really charge up my ppl for more to serve, and i wanna empower my current leaders that they may far exceed the capabilities they are performing now and to outshine their realized potential in them. Exams are coming anyway... for my people... this is one of the 2 periods in a year that i'll look forward to everytime. Cos when they are busy, then i'm not so choked up w ministry, get e logic? Haha. But hey i know that this is no excuse for me to slack, especially for my spiritual walk w Him. Shall i say tat when times get easy, then more retreats and prayers should i be submerging myself into? Hmmm... More time, more prayers, more WOG, more plannings and more learning! Oh ya... i'm giving tuition nowadays to some of my guys... time to earn money... since singapore government not giving me any soon... heaven and earth will pass away, but gideon still must serve God k, no money, no transport, haiz... Worst of all, gotta teach jon tay's bro tuition too.. e Tay's family is getting on my nerve. Oh... i've juz got to know tt i'm supposed to host MC for e parents' service tis sat, in mandarin!!! Err... can anyone tell e church tt i've haven't like touch chinese for ages n my 1st time in ss hosting had to b in tt 5000 histort's language! Man... God is forcing me to really rely on Him. Would be exciting to see how i manage it this sat. God bless me! :p